i think i can never taste happiness anymore

13Nov09

yeah. i never taste happiness anymore in this life. i just found the most unexpected and painful thing about me from my own sister.i’m trying to control my tears now since my lil sister is next to me. but my heart is full of tears.i’ve never felt this pain ever in my life. my own big sister is talking about me infront of me. like i can feel when people are talking about me.i have my instinct and me instinct is very strong. i feel when something is wrong. now i feel like a glass is being bashed to a hard rock. this heart is torned into pieces.not even pieces it become into dust..what hurts the most is the fact she is talking about me after my exam. this just put an end to freedom,stress-release,happiness i never felt before,ever since before my exam..like nda boleh bagi aku a break for a day kh? selama ani,nda cukup kh apa yg ku buat? macam kan setiap masa ada saja boleh menyakitkan hati..alum sampai satu hari,ada saja kn d cakap kan..ani lagi cakap dapan2 psl aku..pikir nya aku nda terasa kah? aku pun ada hati sama perasaan jua..i mean ia ckp psl aku dapan2 aku..ia pikir aku nda dangar kh tu? like helo! i am not that stupid to not understand that! ia ckp ‘aku penting kan diri sendiri’ i mean selama ani,i trust her. i begin to open my heart to her. and seeing her saying those words just completely close my heart even to anyone. i trust someone easily. i hate that.this really make me feel sad,painful and finished. from now onwards till i die, i will never trust her.wana.everyone

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